Sorry I’m late I didn’t want to come

“Sorry I’m late” with the internal (I didn’t want to come) is currently my life.

Me and my other half had tickets to a show last Sunday. I didn’t want to leave the house so I rescheduled.

Today I didn’t even want to get dressed… so I rescheduled again.

The lady on the other end of the phone politely told me I wouldn’t be able to keep rescheduling… so I guess next week I will have to actually go outside.

Maybe.

Right now though, I’m sitting in my pyjamas eating cold plain chow mein and, honestly, feeling way more relieved than anything else.

Grumpy cat no motivation

I haven’t written a post in ages because I just can’t motivate myself. (Even this is going to be a short one).

Some days I have so much get-up-and-go, but at the moment I don’t even have ‘get up’.

No joke, I actually took my meds two hours late today so I didn’t have to stand up. *Slow clap*.

And the other week, my mental health supervisor went out of her way to get me a mentor because I’m struggling at university… what did I do?

Told the mentor I didn’t want any more sessions.

After one session.

Honestly I’m getting better at managing my self-destruct button, but I still haven’t found a way to deal with this lack of motivation problem.

I am exceptionally good at coming up with allll the excuses not to do anything.

Sometimes I don’t even need excuses I just don’t have the energy to care.

Any and all tips and advice welcome (please).

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