Coping with depression

Coping with depression / depressive episodes can be painfully difficult. I have not written a post in what may well be an entire month, as I have been swinging between depression and self-destructive behaviours. I am not the only one in my household with a diagnosis of depression - my partner does too. So, I … Continue reading Coping with depression

Exacerbations of Borderline Personality Disorder

Many things cause exacerbations of Borderline Personality Disorder. The biggest problem is, sometimes you don't realise it's happening. Until, for example, your other half turns to you and says 'You're getting so much worse'. Another one of my problems, is that when someone else says something about me I always jump on the defensive. So … Continue reading Exacerbations of Borderline Personality Disorder

BPD and arguments

Having BPD can make arguments so much worse. I write this sitting in the bath (empty bath, fully dressed) crying. As you do. At times like this I wish I was a person who could put points across sensibly and react rationally to emotional situations. Or just situations - to be honest, half the time … Continue reading BPD and arguments

How estrangement feels

When you're estranged, special events can be a complete cobweb of emotions. An even bigger cobweb than just having BPD on a day-to-day basis (if you can believe)! I have been estranged from several members of my family including a parent for a while now.  Here's a brief insight into my childhood for a snippet … Continue reading How estrangement feels

Earworms and memories

You know that moment when you hear a song and, suddenly, you're somewhere else. Earworms Earworms are those catchy songs you just can't get out of your head. Sometimes it's something silly like The Wheels on the Bus. Or it's that new Little Mix song that's constantly on the radio. Most of the time it's … Continue reading Earworms and memories