BPD and arguments

Having BPD can make arguments so much worse. I write this sitting in the bath (empty bath, fully dressed) crying. As you do. At times like this I wish I was a person who could put points across sensibly and react rationally to emotional situations. Or just situations - to be honest, half the time … Continue reading BPD and arguments

How estrangement feels

When you're estranged, special events can be a complete cobweb of emotions. An even bigger cobweb than just having BPD on a day-to-day basis (if you can believe)! I have been estranged from several members of my family including a parent for a while now.  Here's a brief insight into my childhood for a snippet … Continue reading How estrangement feels

Earworms and memories

You know that moment when you hear a song and, suddenly, you're somewhere else. Earworms Earworms are those catchy songs you just can't get out of your head. Sometimes it's something silly like The Wheels on the Bus. Or it's that new Little Mix song that's constantly on the radio. Most of the time it's … Continue reading Earworms and memories

Flashback to: Diagnosis day…

Everyone is individual; so is the reason that brings a person to the psychiatrist's office. Some people are not there by choice. I, however, was very much there by choice. What brought me there? My reason ... December 2017... which I only partly remember. My best friend came to visit with her partner. I've known … Continue reading Flashback to: Diagnosis day…

Last night I walked out

Last night I walked out of the house. Not like when I was younger, when I'd be gone for days. This time I just walked until my feet took me back. When I was younger, sometimes the neighbours took me back. Sometimes because they recognised me, other times because I wasn't wearing shoes. However, when … Continue reading Last night I walked out